6/12/11 Thursday - dinge....

During my traumatic experiences I found God and have returned to Christianity.

This gave me:
1. God's presence
2. faith
3. Fellowship
4. Morality

But I would like more tools. Physical practical tools to enhance my psychological side.

Thus I went on search.....

"The Power of Now" - Eckhart Tolle

Tuesday, 3am, 6 December 2011 I love quotes...so one day I saw this quote on a yellow sticky note in an art teacher's classroom. " Realize Deeply that the present moment is all you ever have" Eckhart Tolle I was rather taken with it, then having a chat with my absolute "soul-bonding-friend" I quoted this quote that got stuck in my mind a while ago, which I actually wrote onto a sticky note and stuck next to my PC at work... So during this conversation it was remarked that the book is OK but it wasn't really recommended. So I went to bed pondering what was said... I woke just before 3am and mehandering around I decided to see if I can download this ebook - and I did... I read from just after 3 until just after 5...I was taken.. during lunch at work I read some more and I was totally hooked... take in mind that some of the things he says is totally wayward and completely irrational and illogical.. this quote was fantastic... The psychological condition of fear is divorced from any concrete and true immediate danger. It comes in many forms: unease, worry, anxiety, nervousness, tension, dread, phobia, and so on. This kind of psychological fear is always of something that might happen, not of something that is happening now. You are in the here and now, while your mind is in the future. What really stood out which I cannot find now, but he said something to the effect that we acctualy like being and I quote "down and depressed" we enjoy the low.. and that is such a powerful but true statement..absolutely 100% true for me anyway.. the moment you feel yourself going "down" you try fight it, then you slip...you just go with the feelings and before you can get yourself you've gone way down and you are way too deep in. What I am looking in achieving with this book is to get to a point where I can pickup life "tools of the trade" to be able to equip myself better for my life ahead. I want to live in the NOW as currently I am 100% stuck...I cannot move forward, I am in a "waiting" state, as if I'm "paused" I am waiting for something ,for life to happen... So where I am...this book so far - is working for me...